you’re not the norm- you’re the exception

Lump, bump, spot, legion and tumour all evoke the same response: fear, anger, distress and cancer (I use cancer as if it’s an emotion lol but in any case it translates to a wide range of emotions so I can justify including it in my list.)

That’s how my appointments went last week; I left with all the above while trying to focus on the assurance that was given to me.

Assurance is something I cling to, we all do, naturally. We like to be reassured that what we’re going through will be okay. In my case, the usual assurance is that my health will continue on a promising path, at least for a brief period of time allowing me to live.

Everyone knows I live for all the little things. The feeling of the sun on my face or the breeze that makes its way under my coat.

The life I am living feels so much more intense.

Today as I ride the bus, I’m trying to understand how I can influence people to feel the sun instead of just seeing it. 

Stop trying to see and understand things just FEEL them.

Sometimes experiences are meant to feel straight up awful- like when your childhood pet dies or you lose a family member. These events are meant to evoke emotions like sadness and frustration. It’s meant to feel awful but that doesn’t mean you should shut out experiencing it.

It allows you to learn and grow as a person.

For your own sake FEEL everything that comes your way: good, bad, awful or wonderful. 

We’ve all heard “just because your problems aren’t as bad as someone else’s doesn’t make yours any less real.” 

This is true and I stand by that but it’s important to acknowledge that people do have it worse than you. Heck I’ve met tons of people that have it worse than me. 

It doesn’t mean your problems aren’t as important or real but it does mean they could potentially be easier to deal with and that is unarguable.

So experience your problems but be sure if you overcome them you realize you’re not the norm you’re the exception.

Celebrate the milestones in your life- big, small & everything in between.

Xox Anyse 

Double Trouble Update

For those who don’t have Instagram; here is a little update on my bilateral mastectomy coming up.

If you’re interested in my daily life @anyselebeau on Instagram is a good place to start.

I’m not usually one for sharing pictures like this because I don’t like the idea of being reassured by likes for my body. My body deserves so much more than likes on a social platform. But I’m posting this one because today I met with 2 surgeons for a bilateral mastectomy: one completes the removal of my breasts and the other one reconstructs my chest. I’m sharing this because we spend so much time hating things about our body but there’s people out there (aka people like me) that would happily take the small oddly shaped boobs or a little bit of extra skin over completely losing sensation. This surgery is particularly different than my mandible removal/reconstruction. My face may be what everyone sees but breasts are a part of ourselves that only few see. Those we have romantic relations with. There’s no doubt in my mind that the person I share these moments with should love me for me but there’s something about losing complete feeling of your chest. I don’t feel like it’s life changing but I definitely feel like l’m losing a part of my sensuality by losing complete sensation. All of this to say, today when you get undressed and put your comfy pjs on- look in the mirror and smile at all the little things you claim as imperfections. Remember sometimes we strive so hard for perfection that we forget that imperfection is happiness🌱💓

Double the trouble

Its been awhile. It’s almost like when I feel good, I get so caught up in living I forget to share.

It’s something I need to work on because sharing is so rewarding, whether my story resignates or not, it allows me to let go of everything I’m feeling.

So here is my current obstacle: a double mastectomy.

Double is good when it comes to double the snacks, double the dogs, double the time but NOT when it comes to double mastectomies.

When talk of a double mastectomy first arose, during the end of my chemotherapy treatments, my boyfriend tried to enlighten the conversation by telling my oncologist (may I add pediatric oncologist)  “at least she can get the fake boobs she’s always dreamt about.” In that moment I was MOST definitely embaressed. That was far too much information for my oncologist yet he laughed & I too did.

The conversation was short, for the current battle was beating the cancer I had already been diagnosed with, not PREVENTING a new one.

But here we are, almost a year and a half post active treatment and these preventative steps are now on the forefront.

I saw my new genetic doctor just over a month ago and I already have an appointment with both the surgeon who removes the breast tissue & the surgeon who completes the reconstruction.

The thought of losing my natural breasts doesn’t make me feel like any less of a woman BUT it still sucks (a whole frickin lot.)

I can’t feel half my face (no change there) but now losing feeling in part of my chest is daunting & somewhat overwhelming.

Follow along for this new adventure (I use the term adventure loosely.)

But basically, by the end of this journey, I’ll be a bionic woman.

xox Anyse

Jour 9, 10, 11..

Coucou les amis…

I want to start by apologizing for nearly a week of absence on the blog front, I’ve been busy lately (not an excuse I know.) I think going forward it’s fair to say I’ll post two or three times a week– this is a realistic goal for me.

I’ve almost hit the one month mark… YAY this makes me super happy and proud.

If I do a little reflection on the last 24 days I think the results due to the change in lifestyle are promising: I feel better, I’ve lost all the extra weight (I gained from the steroids), I look better & I’ve began to sleep better.

I can honestly say I don’t crave any meat… I can smell it, watch others eat it & even cook it without having the desire to consume it. I have tried a variety of plant based recipes and the flavours are equal, if not better than the meat dishes.


Todays post is going to be a little different than the other ones due to the fact that it’s the blog’s one YEAR anniversary and I haven’t posted.

I’m headed south today and promise to keep you updated how being plant based is realistic even on vacation.

Stay tuned for more recipes, tips and yummy pics.

Xo

 

Jour 8

FRIYAYYYYYYYYY

Ou who doesn’t love a cozy fun Friday after a long week?? I know I do.

Fridays as a kid were cheat days, my mom always cooked a delicious fresh meal every night BUT Friyays were 99% of the time restaurant dinner. (I’m not complaining, I was always allowed to order whatever I wanted so Friday dinners were always a treat!)

Even though I’ve decided switch to a plant based lifestyle I still want fridays to consist of a little less healthy alternative to my weekly dinners. I want to some of the less healthy ingredients, like pastry or bread because quite honestly I love a good carb dinner once in a while.

DAILY TIPS

Don’t push your choices down anyones throat… Nobody likes the pushy vegan who points out every reason they’re vegetarian/ vegan. Let the results do the talking. When someones asks you how you cleared up your skin- Plant based lifestyle. When someone asks how you have so much energy- Plant based life style. When someone asks how you’ve lost that extra 10 pounds you just couldn’t shake off- Plant based lifestyle.

Someone recently said to me: “You never meet a vegetarian/vegan without knowing they are.” Unless you’re at a restaurant and you need to clarify the ingredients in a dish DON’T say anything. I’m not saying you should be ashamed of the lifestyle you’ve chosen but, you can’t force anyone to be or do what you want them to.

DAILY RECIPE(S)

Puff Pastry veggie triangles
(A me recipe)
4 triangles + leftover filling for another 4 (I always freeze leftovers)

  • 1 cooking onion diced
  • 3 carrots shredded
  • 5 mushrooms blended
  • 1 zucchini blended
  • 1 head of broccoli crumbled
  • 1 tomato diced
  • 4 kale stocks (leaves only) cut into small pieces
  • 1 can of red kidney beans blended
  • 1/4 cup of vegetable broth or water
  • 4 cloves of garlic
  • 4 basil leaves
  • 1 tsp of dried or fresh thyme
  • 1 tsp of dried or fresh oregano
  • Salt and pepper to taste
  • 1 tbsp of butter
  • 1tsp of vegetable oil
  • 1 sheet of puff pastry (or homemade pastry)
  • 1 egg
  1. Preheat oven at 400 F
  2. Blend mushrooms, zucchini, red kidney beans and vegetable broth together- set aside.
  3. In a medium size saucepan (on medium heat) add butter, oil, garlic, onion and all other spices until fragrant.
  4. Once fragrant, add blended mixture to the pan and cook over medium heat.
  5. Once hot add the shredded carrot, crumbled broccoli and tomato.
  6. Once the mixture is hot, let cool before rolling the triangles. *If you’re in a rush to eat like me 99% of the time the rolls can be rolled while the mixture is still hot but the texture of the pastry isn’t quite as fluffy.*
  7. Once the triangles are folded, squish the edges to insure the mixture stays inside. (I use a fork.)
  8. Cook the triangles until golden brown. *Approximately 40 minutes*
  9. Pair with your fav sauce and/or garnish with cheese (mine is hot sauce yum yum)

DAILY MEALS

Breakfast

Veggie nuggets- recipe will be featured within the next few days. (Weird I know but I woke up wanting them lol)

Lunch

Leftover white kidney bean, chickpea and spinach curry.

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Dinner

Veggie pastry featured in daily recipe.

Snacks

Chia seed pudding, chocolate zucchini muffin, grapes and some raw nuts.

Drinks

Water and half a can of coke

Xo

Jour 6 et 7

*If you’re wondering why the featured photo is me, I just wanted to point out the wonders this lifestyle has done for my skin. I’ve always had minimal breakouts but now my skin is essentially flawless- no filter, no editing. If you want to see the whole picture check out my Instagram- Anyse Lebeau*

Yay so now that I’m caught up, I’ll be back to posting a blog a day!

Wednesday wasn’t that busy for a hump day… I handed out some resumes, went on the hunt for a spring coat and enjoyed the beautiful weather outside.

Today (being Thursday) was probably one of my busiest days… I usually tutor and plan my meals for the weekend ahead that way, I don’t need to prep when I’m visiting family or hanging with friends!

Today I spent A LOT of time in the kitchen but, I really think it paid off…

DAILY TIP(S)

I think todays daily tip is pretty straightforward- have an open mind. Having an open mind in general is a great characteristic but, having an open mind when it comes to food is a NECESSITY if you want the lifestyle to stick.

I’m talking buy vegetables you don’t even know how to cook. Try dishes you couldn’t possibly imagine liking.

The more you’re willing to experiment, the more you’ll discover.

DAILY RECIPE(S)

Chickenless Pot Pie
(A me recipe)
2 full size pie trays (I always freeze one)

  • 3 full size organic carrots
  • 3 full size celery stocks
  • 5 mushrooms (you could put more but they’re not my fav)
  • 1 can of peas (no salt or sugar added)
  • 1 can of corn (no salt or sugar added)
  • 1 whole shredded zucchini
  • 2 cups of potatoes (you can do both white and sweet)
  • 1 head of broccoli (big head)
  • 1 onion (I use the basic cooking onion)
  • 2 cloves of garlic
  • 1 tsp of celery seed (It seems like you could skip this ingredient but don’t)
  • 1 tsp of pepper
  • 1/4 tsp of salt
  • 1 can of chickpeas (no salt added)
  • 1 roll of puff pastry (or make you’re own)
  • 1/3 cup of flour + 2 tbsp
  • 1/4 cup of butter (or vegan alternative)
  • 2 1/2 cups of vegetable broth (I used organic)
  1. Preheat oven at 400 F
  2. Steam the broccoli, carrots, potatoes and celery until almost soft.
  3. In a saucepan over medium heat, melt butter. Add onions and garlic, cook until translucent.
  4. Add celery seed, pepper and salt; stir until combined.
  5. Slowly add flour to saucepan and mix.
  6. Once the flour is mixed in slowly add the broth until combined. Simmer over medium heat until the mixture thickens.
  7. Once the veggies are done steaming, empty them into a large bowl.
  8. Wait till the vegetables have cooled down then add the remaining vegetables and chickpeas.
  9. Once the sauce has thickened, mix in with the bowl of vegetables.
  10. Divide the ingredients into two pie pan and cover with puff pastry.
  11. Cook until the pastry is golden brown (approximately 40 minutes.)

*This recipe is a great started but add as much or as little of each vegetable depending on your taste.*

DAILY MEALS

Breakfast 

Jour 6

Chia seed pudding along side a lovely green juice.

Green juice was a simple pineapple, kale, water & kiwi blend. The perfect amount of sweet and sour.

Jour 7

Green juice again plus an english muffin broiled with half avocado mash & the other with a sold egg with lots of pepper!

Sometimes a simple smoothie or chia seed pudding doesn’t do it for me. If I’m hungry I tend to go with something a little higher in fat (good fat of course.)

Lunch

Both days consisted of leftovers.. A little bit of chickpea pasta and sauce (the one feature in my first blog.) A salad with things I had in the fridge: chickpeas, black beans, avocado, tomato, spring mix, beets, a little goat cheese (I couldn’t help myself), cucumber and some shredded carrots.

Dinner

YUM YUM YUM I had the chickenless pot pie! It was so good and I was SO hungry that I forgot to snap a pic… next time.

Snacks 

I’ve had a sweet tooth the last few days so lots and LOTS of fruit and berries.

Raw veggies & hummus.

Drinks 

Water

Green juice (honestly it taste like the smoothie from Booster Juice aka delicious)

Chai tea (with a little agave)

XO

 

Jour 4 et Jour 5

JOUR 4

Eeek l know l said l’d post a blog a day but yesterday was a little crazy! l didn’t get home until 11:30 and l just couldn’t be bothered to post (bad l know, but my bed was just calling my name.)

l did a HUGE grocery shop, l bought so many vegetables, l think people thought l bought half the produce section lol

l find that l need to eat larger quantities now that my diet is 80% veggies.

JOUR 5

Today was another hospital day: appointments & scans- the usual.

My biggest challenge so far with this lifestyle is finding delicious AND nutritious meals when I’m out & about.

I actually ate at Spring Rolls and was impressed with their vegetarian dishes. They used numerous vegetables to dress up the plate. I appreciate a variety of vegetables instead of just the typical carrots and broccoli (boringggggg.) *Pictures are posted under lunch*

DAILY TIP(S)

I had a few hours in-between hospital appointments so we decided to grab some food. I have my favourite restaurants around the hospital, that I ate more meals at than I can remember. That being said, my favourite meals at those restaurants include meat and are not plant based meals.

I believe it to be more promising if you go to new plant based restaurants OR restaurants you have never been to- this way you’ll discover new favourites instead of relying on your old meat based favourites.

The comfort in knowing you like a dish is great but when you order it meatless it might not be quite the same.

DAILY RECIPE(S)

Zucchini Chocolate Muffins
(My good friend Google- I altered the recipe to my liking)
12 medium size muffins

  • 1 1/4 cup of whole wheat flour
  • 1/3 cup of unsweetened cocoa powder or cacao powder (I mixed them)
  • 1 tsp of baking soda
  • 1/4 tsp of salt
  • 2 melted tbsp of coconut oil (be sure to let it cool a little bit)
  • 1 egg (or flaxseed meal substitute)
  • 1 tsp of pure vanilla extract
  • 1/3 cup of agave
  • 1 cup of shredded zucchini
  • 1 ripe banana mushed (you can also use a 1/4 cup of applesauce works just the same)
  • 1/2 cup unsweetened almond milk
  • 1/2 of you fav chocolate chips (I like semi sweet)
  1. Preheat oven at 350 F
  2. In a medium size bowl whisk together ALL dry ingredients (except the chocolate chips)
  3. In another bowl, whisk together ALL wet ingredients (this includes the zucchini)
  4. Add the wet ingredients to the dry ingredients and mix.
  5. Once mixed, add the chocolate chips.
  6. Bake for approximately 25 minutes (the time varies depending on the size of your muffins.)

DAILY MEALS

Breakfast

My fav- Chia seed pudding with blueberries and almond slices!img_0507.jpg

Lunch

I had two appetizers and one main (I promise I didn’t eat all of the food- there was SO much!)

Mango salad (bottom left), veggie rice cold wraps (to the right) & vegetarian pad thai (top left).

Dinner

Dinner was a late one, so I had some left over homemade chilli I had frozen. I defrosted it in the pan and put it on top of some rice. As the chilli was defrosting I roasted some veggies (sweet potatoes, brussel sprouts and asparagus.) I tossed them in some olive oil and put a medium amount of pepper. I baked the veggies at 380 F for 45 minutes. They were so good, even my boyfriend who is not a fan of those veggies loved them!

Rookie me forgot to take a picture of my roasted veggies- next time I promise.

Snacks 

Apple and some peanut butter.

Crackers and some cheese (my first time having cheese in almost a week.)

A freshly baked croissant (gosh darn I love pastries.)

Fresh Mango

Blue grapes

Drinks

Water

Chai latte from Starbs made with coconut milk. Honestly, I can’t do the almond milk in my lattes but the coconut milk taste the same as regular milk!

Xo

*Jour 6 will be posted tonight- February 28th*