Jour 2

Saturday is probably one of my fav days but I mean they’re all pretty great, especially since it’s light out by 7am now. YAYAYAYA spring is in the air. Nevertheless, it was a busy morning! I was up at 6 to make lunches, make breakfast, to then head to the gym for 8. After the gym, I visited with a friend before heading to work for 11.

Days like today are the reason meal prep is so important. If you lack organization, the likelihood of you sticking to a diet, or in my case a lifestyle, is very slim. Planning may take time and effort but it’s ALWAYS worth it. Opening a delicious lunch is always fulfilling.

If you find this task overwhelming or just straight up annoying make it into a weekly ritual. Pick one day to discover new recipes, one day to grocery shop & one day to prep.

Meal prep varies depending on your nutritional needs. If you’re making a new meal everyday, meal prep may just consist of cutting up your fruits and vegetables so when you go to use them they’re all ready to go. I’m lucky enough to have the time to make a new meal everyday (as long as I’m not too busy) seeing I’m still recovering from treatment and enjoying the time I have to do stuff I love

Certain foods like rice and pasta can be cooked a couple days in advance but I would recommend holding off on cooking your vegetables, because they’re always better and crispier fresh. I would also suggest you hold off on washing your berries. When you wash berries they tend to go bad faster from the moisture.

Dry snacks can be packed numerous days in advanced that way, it’s one last task in the morning (especially if you’re on the go for lunch.)

DAILY TIP(S)

It’s much easier to cook all at once- the kitchen is already a mess you might as well get everything done. 

If you’re making chia seed pudding for breakfast make enough for the week. That way you aren’t making the same mess twice. The less stress a meal/snack caused the better it tastes- am I right??

I think I’m right haha

DAILY RECIPE(S)

Vegan Lentil Loaf
(“Yummy Mummy Kitchen” blog altered a little)
Serves about 7

  • 2 cups of cooked french lentils (I cooked my own. Just make sure they aren’t too wet or they will make your loaf soggy.)
  • 1/2 yellow onion diced (I added a full onion- I love onion)
  • 2 carrots, diced
  • 2 celery stalks, diced
  • 1/2 cup of diced red bell peppers
  • 1 1/4 cup of mushrooms cut (once again I blended mine- seeing me & the bf aren’t a fan)
  • 2 cloves of garlic, minced
  • 2 tbsp of tomato paste
  • 1 tbsp of BBQ sauce
  • 2 tbsp of flax meal
  • 1 tbsp of dried parsley (I added a little extra)
  • 1/4 tsp of salt
  • 1/4 tsp of pepper
  • 1/2 cup of oats
  • 1/2 cup of breadcrumbs
  • 1/3 cup of ketchup (I REALLY dislike ketchup so I bought the natural one with no sugar so it wasn’t quite as gross lol)
  • pinch of brown sugar (to be more precise I added about 1 tsp)
  1. Preheat the oven at 350 degrees F. Line the baking sheet with parchment paper OR oil it a little if you know the pan doesn’t tend to stick.
  2. In a large pan over medium heat, sauté the onion , carrots, celery, pepper, and mushrooms with a pinch of salt and pepper. Once softened, add the garlic and cook for another minute or so.
  3. In a food processor or blender (I used my ninja blender) pulse together the lentils, cooked vegetables, tomato paste, bbq sauce, flax meal, parsley, salt, pepper, oats and breadcrumbs. DO NOT PUREE but blend into a chunky dough. This step is essential if you want the loaf to resemble one of a meat texture. If you puree it, there is little texture.
  4. Shape the dough into a ball and place in the baking sheet (I used a loaf pan to ensure the shape was ecstatically pleasing).
  5. Bake for 35 minutes. Remove from the oven, add the ketchup & sprinkle with sugar before returning it to the oven for 10 minutes. Let the loaf firm up once you remove it from the oven for 10 minutes.

*Be sure to read the outcome/review in Daily meals… this wasn’t amazing*

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DAILY MEALS

Breakfast

This morning was an early one like mentioned above. Early mornings call for pre made breakfasts! I made chia seed pudding last night and just topped it with some fresh strawberries and almond slices before devouring.

Chia seed pudding is probably my FAV breakfast & snack right now.

*Tomorrow my daily recipe will be my vegan chia seed pudding- stay tuned*

Lunch

I had leftover chickpea pasta and immune boosting pasta sauce. You already know how I feel about this recipe (posted in yesterdays blog.) With a homemade chocolate chip cookie to finish off.

I love a little something sweet after lunch yum yummmm

Dinner

Today I had some extra time so I threw together my fav bruschetta. I promise to feature that recipe in the upcoming days. It’s my moms recipe and honestly I’ve never had better. The balsamic reduction on top is SO delicious omg. I could eat just these for dinner!

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I made the vegan loaf featured in my “Daily Recipes.” The odds of me making it again are slim but it was worth a shot. The flavours were great but the texture was too baby food like for me. I think pan frying each piece (in a little olive oil) individually would be more appealing to me. The outside would be a little crustier and less moist. The sauce wasn’t bad, I like a good classic tomato sauce with my loaf.

Snacks

It was another busy day but I managed to feed the hunger a little more today.

I had fresh fruit throughout the day: strawberries, raspberries, blackberries & grapes. Along with half a Plant protein bar!

Drinks 

Started the day with a nice cup of coffee. I usually add agave and no milk but, today was Saturday so I treated myself: cream & agave.

Water, water, water & more water.

Ou also a cup of grapefruit perrier with dinner.


I just want to mention that my goal is to include more fresh raw veggies as snack options. My next grocery shop will feature new & exotic veggies.

Xo

 

Jour 1

So if I’m being completely honest, I started the vegetarian diet February 14th. I wanted to make sure it was something I was going to stick too, before I decided to share my journey.

I love to cook, but for some reason the first few days seemed like all my culinary skills were no longer useful. (For my vegan/vegetarian followers– think about it, you’ve been eating vegetables for years and all of sudden you’re told to cook with numerous meats you’ve never even tasted.) I felt like the recipes I had grown to love didn’t have the necessary nutritious (especially protein) if  I didn’t include meat.

As the days went on I decided that if I was going to make my vegetarian diet into a lifestyle I needed to accept that it would take time and practice.

I needed to put effort into finding new recipes that offered my body all the nutrients, minerals & vitamins it needed.

I decided to embrace it by jumping in the car and heading to the nearest book store. I spent hours looking at all the different plant based vegan/vegetarian cook books. The more I began to read, the more I was inspired by the lifestyle. Being a real foody,  I was scared that I would have to eat things that may not necessarily please my palate. The more I read, the more I realized just how delicious plant based meals could be.

DAILY TIP(S)

I think discovering new recipes that taste good in addition to make you feel good, are the ones that are going to make the transition easier. I think it’s unfair to expect your body and mind to embrace every raw flavour overnight. The journey takes time- keep some sort of comfort food in your diet to make the journey easier.

If pasta sauce is your go to (it’s probably one of my favs) find one that is better & more nutrient dense but that offers the same great comfort.

I think its also SUPER important to plan before going grocery shopping. The first few days, I thought going to the grocery store would inspire me but it actually ended up doing the complete opposite. I felt frustrated and discouraged by all the meat products and byproducts. When I began to pick recipes and shop based on the ingredients I needed for the week, I began to enjoy grocery shopping again. I discovered items I had never purchased before; it almost felt like a new adventure.

DAILY RECIPE(S)

Immunity boosting tomato sauce with mushrooms
(“Oh She Glows” Cookbook I’ve modified it to my liking)
Makes 5 to 6 cups

  • 1 tbsp (15mL) extra virgin olive oil (I used avocado oil because I ran out of olive oil)
  • 1 sweet onion, diced
  • 5 cloves of garlic (I love garlic so modify to taste)
  • 3 cups of mushrooms (I don’t love mushrooms so I blended mine on high for about
  • 20 seconds- the mushrooms turned into a ground beef texture)
  • 1/2 cup of basil leaves (I threw mine in the blender with the mushrooms)
  • 1  (28 ounce) can of diced tomatoes (I had a bunch of left over fresh tomatoes so I used those and they worked just fine)
  • 8 tbsp of tomato paste (I like my sauce a little thicker so I used the whole can)
  • 1/2 tsp of salt
  • 1/2 tsp of pepper (I added more before I served it)
  • 2 tsp of dried oregano
  • 1 tsp of thyme
  • 2 tsp of red pepper flakes (If spice isn’t your thing- put less or none at all)
  • 2 tbsp of chia seeds (optional- I put more because I didn’t have any lentils)
  • 1 cup of lentils (optional- I didn’t include any)
  1. In a large sauce pan, heat the oil over medium heat. Add the onion and garlic, stir and combine. Sauté for 5 minutes or until the onion is translucent. Season with salt and pepper to taste.
  2. Stir in the *blended mushrooms and basil leaves* and raise the heat to medium-high. Cook for 10 minutes or so. Let the mixture cook until most of the liquid released by the mushrooms has cooked off.
  3. Stir in the diced tomatoes, tomato paste, oregano, thyme and red pepper flakes if desired, and stir to combine.
  4. Stir in the chia seeds along with lentils, if desired.
  5. Enjoy on top of your fav noodles (zucchini, spelt, GF, chickpea, etc)

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DAILY MEALS

Breakfast

So I kinda slacked this morning. I wasn’t really hungry so I had a green juice. I mixed a couple handfuls of kale, about a cup of pineapple, a cup of water and a sprinkle of chia seeds. I blended it for about 30 secondes, since the pineapple was fresh it was very liquidly.

I had about 10 raw almonds before heading out to run a few errands.

Lunch

I had leftover chickpea curry and green beans. After I reheated it, I added some fresh sprouts for some extra crunch and nutrients.

I was feeling some sweet so I had a couple tbsp of sea sweet chocolate chips.

Dinner

I made the pasta sauce featured in my “Daily Recipes.” Honestly, I think I like it more than my old go to ground beef one. My non-vegetarian followers should even give it a try. The mushrooms give the sauce a great flavour (and I do not like mushrooms.)

I ate it with some chickpea pasta since I didn’t add any lentils to the sauce. I think it would also be good with zucchini noodles just make sure your noodles aren’t too wet. After I spiral them I always throw them in a hot pan to cook some of the moisture off of them.

Snacks

I was kinda busy today so my snack game was not very strong. I ate an apple with some PB2 powder peanut butter (sometimes I mix it with a little honey if I’m feeling sweet.)

I was in a coffee shop and the smell of the donuts got to me… I couldn’t resist, fresh donuts are a weakness. I had a chocolate donut. *I just want you to know a treat here and there is okay- don’t let food become a thing of anxiety. It is important not to use food as a reward or punishment. When I put on nearly 30 pounds do to cancer treatments I began to hate food. It became a source of anxiety and frustrations. I was lucky enough to lose the liquid weight I had gain. I still have a few extra pounds but with good diet and frequent exercise I know it will come off. *

“FOOD IS NOT THE PROBLEM- FOOD IS THE SOLUTION” -The Girl in Pink

Xo

Health is Wealth

There’s few things in life that can’t be bought, health being one of them. No one decides if or when they’re going to fall ill- it just happens. As my 7 year old sister would say “you get what you get and you don’t get upset.”

For the majority of us it’s unexpected and terrifying.

When you become sick, especially with a life threatening disease, you realize just how crucial a healthy body is. Life’s obstacles become far greater when you have a body that is only working at half capacity.

That being said, shouldn’t your health be your greatest concern?

Perhaps we’re searching for something that we already know the answer to… Instead of looking for cures, we should focus our energy on not becoming ill in the first place.

l have put a lot of thought and research into moving forward with a plant based vegetarian diet.

Join me on my journey towards a healthier & happier me.

(Psst l am going to be posting a blog everyday for the next 30 days with my experiences, likes, dislikes, recipes & tips.)

Xo

 

 

365 days

As I sit in front of my computer the memories begin to fill my mind but the idea of re living them through words almost seems too much to handle. I’ve spent a few hours staring at my computer screen; 365 days, 365 days, 365 days, 365 days… THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY-FIVE DAYS.

WOW.

A number that has been continuously running through my mind since I woke up on January 30th.

It’s one of those thoughts I just can’t seem to shake off. 
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Bold is beautiful- Benefit cosmetics

{I’m pre warning you that this blog post is 100% directed towards my makeup junkie followers (Awesome I know eee)}

Benefit cosmetics (flawless brows, small pores & overall flawless skin) partners with numerous nonprofit organizations to help girls and women alike who are going through hard times.

A big group of the women that the Bold and Beautiful campaign helps, are those suffering from physical changes due to cancer. This group of girls/women hits close to home for me, seeing I witnessed first hand what it’s like to be a woman and lose your physical appearance to cancer.

Weight gain due to steroids, loss of hair due to chemotherapy, burns marks due to radiation, scars due to intense surgeries and all other extreme physical changes make the journey even more difficult than it already is.

I’m happy to share that I was chosen as the face of this campaign for Canada. I’m looking forward to being a face of strength for women- I want more women to embrace their flaws.

The bold and beautiful campaign donates 100% of the profits from their eyebrow waxing, during the month of May, to none profit charities that help girls and women alike.

To learn more about this AWESOME campaign simply click Bold is Beautiful

What’s better than a fresh pair of brows??! A pair of brows that help put smiles on the faces of women going through hardships.

Hehehe let those caterpillars grow.

Xo

Acknowledge the feeling, Share the feeling & Accept the feeling 

l thought since I preach it, I should live by it
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The last couple days have been a little challenging for me. My chronic headaches haven’t changed (whether that’s a good thing or not I’m not really sure.)
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I’ve tried to keep my mind busy, that’s usually how I deal with stressful/anxious situations. I’ve been trying to talk myself out of feeling this way because one should NOT (or at least try not) to worry about things they cannot change.
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The idea of starting treatment again is extremely frustrating. I’m starting to feel like the Anyse I was before this whole thing started.
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As I’m watching the world junior hockey game (like every other person who doesn’t like to watch professional sports on tv lol) I begin to scroll through my instagram feed and all these stories of relapsing catch my eye. The little pictures on the explore page seem to stick out like a sore thumb.
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I can’t help but read each and everyone of them. As I read one after the other, this darkness seems to almost consume me. As I try to ignore the feeling, it seems to reach my stomach. It feels like my heart is slowly making its way to my feet.
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I realize it was easier to deal with the cancer when I knew it was being monitored daily by specialists and medical professionals who’s end goal was to “cure” me. Now that I’m living without the ease of knowing I’m being monitored cancer seems to be a scarier thought.
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As I try to understand where this feeling of anxiety arose from, I can’t help but link it back to the reactions of those around me when I told them that I had been experiencing chronic headaches (on the left side of my face where the tumour had been just months ago).
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“Actions speak louder than words”
“Actions speak louder than words”
“ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS”.                           
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(If your best friend, sister, boyfriend, girlfriend, brother, mother, cousin, etc have/had cancer remember to always look on the bright side of things even if it’s not how you feel. This is the only time I accept and ENCOURAGE you to tell a little white lie. It could help relieve the anxiety and distress they are feeling.)
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As my blog post comes to an end I can’t help but feel a sense of relief because I’ve:
  1. Acknowledged– that the cancer may come back
  2. Shared– my feelings with those who are ready to listen
  3. Accepted– that l only have so much power over the relapse rate of the awful disease we all know as cancer
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Psst…
Need someone to talk to? I’m here
Xo Anyse

The warrior project

Talking about an illness that has impacted the person you are can be extremely difficult. It brings back memories that you may have spent a long time trying to forget. That being said, sharing your story can be beneficial for those around you as well as yourself.

“If you avoid your feelings, you also avoid understanding who you really are.”

This is why I believe it’s truly important to share your experiences and traumas with others to help yourself overcome them.

I understand that sharing experiences and traumas, that are associated to illnesses, can be difficult but, a new year means new goals am I right??


Are you or someone you know a CANCER warrior , CARDIOVASCULAR warrior, ANXIETY warrior, DOWN SYNDROME warrior, AUTISM warrior, DEPRESSION warrior, MULTIPLESCLEROSIS warrior, LUPUS warrior, BIPOLAR warrior??? Or a WARRIOR of any sort under the age of twenty five?

If so PLEASE message me (or email anyselebeau@yahoo.ca with the subject warrior project) & add yourself to the Facebook page https://m.facebook.com/AnysePermanentlyPink/

If you would like to participate but don’t want to share your name that is okay, you will remain anonymous.

Your participation requires a minimal amount of effort.

I’m looking forward to hearing from some of you.

Xox Anyse

The scary word that isn’t cancer

Cancer, cancer, cancer…. remission, remission, remission… RELAPSE.

The seven letter word that some would argue is worse than cancer. (I think I happen to be one of them.)

As I sit by the fire and drink my green tea those little thoughts sneak in unexpectedly without me noticing & I’m suddenly thinking about relapsing.

All these stories about people, especially children, that relapse shortly after they’re claimed “cancer free” seem to hit me most when I’m alone. Although I find comfort in reading stories about children relapsing multiple times and still having the same love for life.

They seem to be resilient to the mental stress adult oncology patients carry.

Life never seems to lose its sparkle.


I asked my best friend what we would do if I relapsed again and he simply replied: “We’ll fight it just like we did last time & just like we’ll do next time… no fight is too hard or too long if you’ll make it to the other side. ”

I couldn’t have said it better myself: “The strength of those with illness is measured by the support of those around them.”

Cancer, remission & relapsing is all part of the journey.

I guess you learn to love the good, the bad and the awful.

If I relapse and still have the people I love beside me perhaps life will continue to sparkle in my eyes.

Xo Anyse

Thankful

It’s 1:54 pm on a Tuesday afternoon and I don’t think I’ve ever loved being alive as much as I do in this moment. I’ve recently spent a lot of time thinking about everything I’ve gone through the last few months and suddenly all I feel is a weird mixture of sadness & relief all in one.

It all seems a little too good to be true- I made it out alive, in one piece; stronger & wiser than I could have ever imagined. My world was shattered when I found out I was sick again, but now that this chapter is coming to an end, it almost feels like I’m losing a part of me that I spent so long learning to love. I had never been so happy; everything & anything put a smile on my face. Now that the chapter is slowly ending I feel like I’m losing part of myself in the midst. It may be hard to understand from someone on the outside looking in nevertheless, cancer helped me find the person I wanted to become. Strong, understanding, loving and all around happy.

Cancer took a lot away- appearance, sensation & mobility but it also allowed me to gain so many wonderful qualities.

For that I am thankful.

Thankful to be alive & thankful to be me.

I hope each and everyone of you feels the same way.

Xo

 

Accepting death

I’ve recently been asked by multiple people how I stay so positive while going through something so difficult and challenging. If I’m being completely honest, the answer is quite simple- accepting that death may come a little sooner than you had once anticipated.

I know death is a difficult subject. The majority of people have a hard time accepting the death of a loved one or dear friend, let alone their own death. It is too often seen as the worst possible outcome.

Perhaps if it was seen in a more positive light those who suffer/suffered from a physical illness could live a happier and more fulfilling life.

I’m not saying it’s an easy pill to swallow. It’s not like I woke up one morning and decided that I was okay with my life ending at such a young age. It took a few months, and much thought but I have finally come to the realization that:

DEATH is okay

DEATH is unavoidable

DEATH is a part of life

Sure I’m young and sure I have a million things I would like to accomplish before my time here is up, but if tomorrow were to be my last day I am content with the things I’ve done, the people I’ve met and the love I have felt.

“A life with love is a life that’s been lived.”

For those of you going through the same thing (or for those who want to appreciate their lives a little extra) – take a deep breath every time you wake up, hug the ones you love a little extra and conquer the day as if it were your last.

You don’t need to live a long life to live a complete life.
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