6 letters- 6 months ago

June marks 6 months…

CANCER.

The inevitable 6 letter word that was like vomit from my oncologists mouth. The day the life I was currently living was no longer going to be anywhere close to ordinary.

Everything I knew as normal came to a halting STOP.

I’ve been riding this roller coaster for a few months now and if I’m being completely honest it was easier to fight than I thought it would be. I would be lying if I said there weren’t days where the world felt dark and awful but somehow through this midst of it all life seemed to shine through TWICE as bright as it did before.

Planning summer adventures & trips between chemo… cute coffee dates & weeks spent with old friends…

School will await me when I’m ready- LIFE will be there for me to take on when I am well & ready.

Here’s to another 6 months of ups and downs- here’s to accepting everything life throws my way.

Xo

 

University… it’ll be great they say

University… It’ll be great they say…

I bet you have this whole ideas that you’re going to be your healthiest self & be the most scholarly version of yourself EVER

HAHAH that’s funny! Two months in you’ll be going to bed at 2am and regretting it when u need to make a 8am class. You’ll also debate going to at least 2 of your classes a week, not because you don’t care but, because it almost seems too easy. (If you can do the homework while you should be in class- it puts you ahead no?? GOOD ONE I promise you it’s worth attending your classes.)

Except if u decide to take a film studies class & hate every minute of it because you have the attention span of a 5 year old and can’t sit still for more than 10 minutes at a time.

You’ll also realize the salad bar that has basic lettuce & tomatoes gets old real fast. You end up eating gross over cooked pasta & wishing you appreciated the home cooked food sooner but u end up going back to the shitty salad bar because it’s better than over cooked pasta :/

At times it also feels like you’re attending summer camp but u never get to leave… scary right?

Minus the stuff listed above university is pretty awesome..

Adulthood doesn’t seem so far away after all

Xo